Hello dear reader,
First I hope you’ll have an amazing holiday season!
I am at the airport and will be soon on my way home. Which is nice but as I am approaching another family celebration as single it makes me a bit anxious too. I am actually very happy right now but the disappointed faces still bother me.
But to more important things that lie ahead, directly after Christmas I will continue to travel. It will be my first journey outside of Europe. I will travel 4 weeks alone including a silent meditation retreat. Useless to say that this will be challenging. And the closer it comes the bigger gets the fear. You might ask why do you do it then?
I thought about that too.
I think it will help me grow and learn new things about myself. Is that scary, fuck yes. But I reached that point where I accept being not comfortable all the time if the outcome will be a better understanding of myself.
A comfort zone is a nice place but nothing ever grows there, right?
So I decided to leave the comfort zone and see how it will go out there.
As every adventure includes some fear and uncertainty I decided to settle with the uncomfortable feeling and still go with it.
I will spend therefore new years eve in a Buddhist monastery, well let’s say it will be interesting 🙂
For someone so chatty as me silence sounds awkward but when I booked this trip I had a deep longing to take a break of the world. So I respect what I somehow long for even if my rational part is a little freaking out about it. I am still on a beginner level when it comes to listening to your soul. I think this ‘silly’ little ideas we have from time to time are the way our true self is challenging our rational part.
I will let you know if it was worth it 🙂
“think a happy thought”
I will be back with the travel report in January